I Wonder

I sit alone in silence, well not very often as I don’t get much time to myself to sit thinking! When I do sit in silence it isn’t a nice thing like people always say! Oh I just need silence and to be alone” I do like to have some time to myself but I like music on very low or the television on very low as I prefer to have some company noise around me.

I often wonder why I am this way as when I was a child I had eight brothers and sisters so there was always a lot of noise and I can remember not noise that was good it was always arguing and shouting, I still feel very uncomfortable with total silence though.
I love to sit in the garden and listen to the birds singing which is really lovely where I live, as there is a big nature park next to us, I also love to hear my grandchildren laughing and playing, I don’t like to hear people argue or scream at the children as many where I live do seem to scream instead of sitting and talking and explaining to there children the rights and wrongs of life.

I wonder if it is because I was one of 9 children and we all had to fight for attention that I do like to hear some quite noise I call it, life was so competitive when I was young as I was the second born and always felt left out, my parents did try to make things right when I was grown up and married they both seemed to realize how hard it was and how unhappy I was.

Some people will give anything for peace and quite and I don’t blame them but I bet there are many who just like a little background noise, so many friends and family visit us and always comment on how soothing they feel with the low sound on in the background, well they say there’s nought so queer as folk.