Everything, Well not really....

Dark Days

As I stare into the mirror
with this strong feeling of time
not knowing if it was his fault
or if it was mine
to prey on such innocents
that has left me in a fog
I feel that in my small world
I should be chained up like a dog
not deserving the chance of life
but more like the edge of a knife
now knowing the things that I've done
for in the devils eyes well,
it was all fun
now as I hide here in my shell
God, I should go to hell
for these acts I have portrayed
my death bed is where I should be laid
but the devil I don't want to win
for making me commit this sin
of shattering the thought of love
and blocking the light from above
so I ask you for your forgiveness
for working the devils business
I kneel before you my lord
and ask you for your light
to cast up your mighty sword
and help me finish this fight
to climb out of this hole
and reclaim the heart of my soul
for with your hands of grace
the devil will definitly lose this race.

Flight.....

Then and Now.....

That was then, this is now
tell me again if this is to be how
why one will destroy the beauty of life
so easy for them with the use of a knife
so slender a cut, so big of a gash
to snuff out the light, for so little as cash
to use one's hand to tighten the wire
or to strike a match to start up a fire
with a spray of bullets the lead will fly
for no particular reason someone will die
If you are so lucky not to be the one
live to be happy, leave nothing undone
to rise above all can bitter and sweet
to touch the face of God would make you feel complete.

Flight.....


The Past.....

As I sit here thinking of the past
wondering how it went so fast
looking through the window at the trees so still
why would I do so many things against my own will
they say that together we stand and divided we fall
but isn't it enough that we just try to stand tall
even though I am the one who likes to take a chance
why do I find it so hard to be the one to take a stance
as I sit here watching the snow fall
wondering if this is really me at all
how the snowflake falls so free
not knowing how short it's life will be
no worry  and even no care
about life's being so unfair
where its going or where it's been
and all the things left unseen
unsure of where it's supposed to land
never asking for a helping hand
I believe it lives for the day
and all it really wants to say
is thank you for allowing me to see
all that is given to me
for we all should be thankful to give
and most of all, for all a chance to live.

Flight.....

Learning To Smile.....

All this time thinking
that my life was still sinking
I was not able to see
any future for me
facing the devils and clowns
and all their ups and downs
they left me feeling dismay
each and every day
Then an angel came from above
to tell me about someones love
walking with me for a while
teaching me how to smile
then with such a subtle kiss
taking care not to miss
she showed me what to perceive
it is his touch I shall receive
for this feeling I get from above
is the feeling of God's undying love

Flight......

FLIGHT.....

Good morning sunshine,
good morning light.
you give me the strength,
to put up the fight.
against the evils of sin,
for the devil wants to win.
to spread my own wings,
with the sun in sight.
look towards the future,
as I take (become) FLIGHT.
feeling the warmth of our lord,
as I continue to soar,
rising above all,
being sure not to fall.
soaring in to the blue,
excepting all that is new.
for believing in myself,
and those around me too.
to prepare for life,
and to prepare for love.
is to look into god's eyes,
as I soar like a dove.

Flight.....

What a view.........

it was made for me.
as it was made for you
to have the sweet grace
of this spectacular view.
of all the sugar and spices
and little solar devices
nothing has more power
than the scent of a flower.
So use all your senses
to break down the fences
when push comes to shove
we must all learn how to love.
to believe in oneself
is a part of the game,
to belittle oneself
is the feeling of shame.
if life is feeling a little grim
and the lights a little dim
just raise your head high
and gaze into the sky
and learn how to care,
for this world we share.
and think not the edge of the knife
but think only "The Beauty of Life"

Flight.....

With his music..........

with his music I will learn to play
because his music is here to stay
with his music I will learn to live
because his music is here to give
with his music I will learn to fly
because his music will never die
with his music I will learn to dream
while floating on a quite summer stream
with his music full of light
I will be able to put up the fight
with his music I will never quit
because his music doesn't let you sit
with his music I cant stay on the ground
because of his music and it's euphoric sound
with his music I get lost in thought
for that ecstasy I've always sought
with his music nothings left undone
because of his music I always have fun
with his music you never nod
when ever you hear the music of God
with his music I'll learn to love
because of his music I will soar like a dove.

Flight.....

In It Together.....

Watching people in the streets hurry along
some of them weak, some of them strong
things to do, places to go
so many of them really don't know
got to go here, got to go there
some of them pulling out their hair
look at em drive slow, look at em drive fast
better slow down bud,  you'll end up in a cast
a few of them rich, a few of them poor
all looking to get to the top floor
look-he's sporting a new pair of shoes
you know they come in twos
I know that last line was dumb
but I'm starting to feel a little numb
she's seems to be wearing leather
he's got a top hat and feather
over there stands some teens
with some fashionable rips in their jeans
there goes someone on a bike
and that one looks ready for a hike
with every one in such a hurry
its all starting to look a little blurry
look- she feels it necessary to carry mase
for, well you know, just in case
this one holds her purse a little tighter
just because he looks like a fighter.
do any of them really seem to care
that we all breath the same air.
sitting on the corner watching the world go by
trying to figure out exactly why
how people can be so mean
when we all share the same scene.
everybody is black, everybody is white
so why do so many of us have to fight
for us not to get along
to me feels, so very wrong
so if you have to walk a mile
just remember to offer a smile
and don't get scared
when I call you brother
cause in the long run,
we're all in it together.

Flight.....

First Time.....

When I looked into your eyes for the first time
my unsettled heart started to chime
with nothing to loose and everything to gain
I knew nothing would ever be the same
I've been waiting for you my whole life
for someone like you to make my wife
we will soon become each others lover
as we learn to teach one another
to always live to see the next day
to express our feelings in a magical way
to fill the void within our heart
to leave the past, right from the start
now I know now from that day afar
when I wished upon that little star
to bring me an angel from above
that would finally show me how to love
the only angel that God knew
would turn out to be my one and only YOU!

Flight.....

As The Wind Blows.....

As I sit here and listen to the wind blow
Hoping that this poem will soon flow
That I am able to string a few soft words
just like the sound of chirping spring birds
Hoping when I get there I can truly hold back
Instead of something else, like a little sneak attack
Because I am overwhelmed with this feeling inside
with this fear that you will run and hide
So for you I will be like a perfect man
and only ask to hold your sweet hand
cause I know deep within my heart
That this is only to be the start
of what they call a long term relation
with no time for silly frustration
So as I try to come to the end of this poem
to leave you in a state of just knowing
That you have nothing to worry about with me
But only to let out a shout , you'll see
That I could actually be the one to make you shiver
and the rest of your body definitely quiver
To finally realize within your heart
that it is to be the one you call Mark.

Flight.....

Blown Away.....

Blown away like clouds in the wind
Not really knowing if we really haved sinned
Not wanting to stop this emotion I feel
This feeling that makes me feel so real
At this time of really not knowing
but some how, just can't stop this glowing
Standing here on your center stage
Soaring like a bird, just let out of it's cage
I can release all of my worries
As I step out of the flurries
Into this world surrounded by your love
that fits me, oohh, so much like a glove

I thought I would write this little letter
to tell you how much I feel like a feather
With this force you have over me
It really isn't hard to see
Just how long I will definitely stay
Because nothing in this world, BUT YOU
will ever take me away!

Flight.....

One last time.

She's been gone for so many days
my life feels like I'm in a walking in a haze
she made the choice to leave it all behind
left with only a memory in my mind
the decision made NOT only by her self
to put me away up on the shelf
She say's, maybe it's not meant to be
easier for her, I think, to get up and flee
jumping on a plane to fly far away
leaving my life with not much to say
I will keep our days together deep within my heart
to see her once again as I fall asleep in the dark
I know it's really not all that much
to be able to only dream her touch
doesn't really matter if she's here or not
at this time of dispare, it's all I really got
I hope she knows I will no longer need to wallow
even though this is really hard to swallow
so as I put this pen to paper one last time
I'll let the tear from my eye dot the last line........

Flight.....


Change......

Sitting here in a state of confusion
Trying to come to terms with the conclusion
Wondering why it all came to this
And all the things I am going to miss
The feel of your curly brown hair
And how I melted under your sexy stare
To touch you’re soft, silky white skin
And how it stirred the butterflies within
To hold you close to me at night
And how you looked in the morning light

I am left with only memories in my head
Having to exchange the love for pain instead
Hoping to overcome this feeling within my heart
And be able to have a brand new start
I guess everyone faces the decision
Of a few changes and a bit of revision
To move on in one’s life is a part of the game
Because in my experience nothings ever left the same……..

Flight.....


Beliefs......

When one believe's their falling in Love
and they found an angel that came from above
it's easy not to see what's in front of your face
and not to know when to give up the chase
you think you have found what you need
to survive in this world of jealousy and greed
but sometimes you get caught for no reason or rhyme
at someone else's moment of, just out to kill time
They make you believe it's only you they will see
but won't hesitate to do it right in front of me
I guess for some people it's harder to handle
for them to believe it's not really a scandal
I know the relationship was only in the beginning
and my world was still in the process of spinning
but I will learn to believe in nothing at all
I will no longer be the one to take the fall
to many people have showed me the way
to now knowing I will never once again say
anything to anyone about how I am involved
because of how this world has truely evolved
what people will throw away just like a stone
and some people cant leave well enough alone

Flight......

looking glass......

Looking back on dark days in the past
thank God they really weren't to last
I really didn't think I could take it anymore
cause this feeling I had was burnig to the core
I think you know exactly what I mean
when you feel like coming apart at the seam
when someone has filled your life with ups and downs
and eventually turns your smiles in to frowns
to rip the carpet from under your feet
and throw the rest of you out on the street
there comes a time you must learn to close the door
because you dont have to take it anymore
you must stand up and push back the pain
and think to yourself this wont happen again
believe there is going to be a brighter day
and hold your head up and be proud to say
that you'll be the one to hold true
cause everyone else is entitled to thier own view

Flight......

Do you feel it......

As I watch the clouds roll in to cover the skies
I ponder the memories that lay behind these eyes
the thoughts of you and the time we had
I cant help at this point but to feel so sad
the only way to feel you is through letters on a screen
trying to figure out what they all might mean
I call out to you through thoughts in my mind
hoping that in your heart you will soon find
the time to think of me now and then
and find the path to be together again
to believe that we are the ones for one another
so we can live our lives forever together
to leave behind all the worries and fear
so you will feel the warmth of my heart so near
I know you are so far away from me right now
but if you listen to your heart it will show you how
to believe what you feel is the passion of your heart
and you deserve that love we had right from the start.

Flight.....

At the beach!!!!!!!

To walk along the sands of time
now knowing that you will always be mine
hand in hand until the morning light
as the sun breaks through the dark of night
even though it is a beautiful sunrise
it doesn't compare to the colour of your eyes
splashing each other at the waters edge
there I know I will make my pledge
to forever be with you, and become as one
at that point nothing will be left undone
to live my days and nights with you
to show my love through and through
to look out across the liquid devine
there I will make you truely mine
gazing at each other as we step to the ocean
and have another sip of it's magic potion
that remedy that will forever hold
the secret of love is what I am told
as we watch the roll of the waves softly break
hopefully in your boots I will make you shake
as you walk with me, you'll learn how to discover
how we are to become each others lover
and how things will always be within reach
as long as you walk with me along the beach.

Flight.....

Personal Reflection.....     

I somewhat struggle with the images
that float along the rivers of my mind
these pictures that are nailed to
the bounderies of being so unkind
It's been hard to this point to exactly see
everything that might and might not be 
with you being all those miles away
raging wars upon myself I try and stay
All that I have is the memory of you and I
answering a question to try and know why
erupting a volcano of mistrust and deceite
making us feel so lost and incomplete
as once said, could be a road one must walk
letting you know that we must always talk
believe in love once again in your heart
leading us back to where we can start
look inside of your mind it's all within reach
just release the fears before they may breach
come out from underneath that shroud
feel the rain as it falls throught the cloud
guide your soul into the light
with all of your lasting might
drift on the tides and you may find,
the feeling that is not so unkind
find your soul in the sunrise
rise up as the emptiness subsides
be as one, together,
you can feel forever,
rise up together
search and you will find the answer
if you look deep inside your mind
you can always be sure to find
that you can see forever,
let's rise up together......

Flight.....

Morning eyes......

As the day dawned new,
I looked over at you,
sleeping so sound,
the sun all around.
the calm on your face,
could not be erased,
as sleep was still strong,
I just tried to prolong,
that feeling so sweet,
the air filled with heat,
with memories of last night,
the thoughts I won't fight.
I'll have them all day,
so then if I may,
say thanks for giving me,
you and the memory,
for the sight of you sleeping,
in my heart I'll be keeping.

A.K.