She's

She's screaming and screaming,
but no one hears her,
She's trying to run,
but no one moves out of her way,
She's stabbing harder and harder,
but the pain won't go away,
She wants to give up on her life and restart,
but she knows that that's impossible,
She wants help,
but doesn't know how to ask,
She wants to let go of her loss and pain,
but she never will and never can,
She asks God for forgivness and answers,
but never gets them,
She'll smile at you,
and act as if nothing is wrong,
but everytime she smiles,
the burden grows deeper and deeper inside her,
She starts out everyday wit ha good thought,
but always ends the day,
crying herself to sleep,
she asks God for forgiveness and answers,
But the only answer she can find,
is the sharpest item closest to her bed,
she's always screaming,
She's always trying to run,
but she knows that the stabbing and pain,
is the only way to silence her screaming,
and to stop running and hide from everyone for a few minutes,
but for those few minutes,
she'll let the pain burn in her wrists,
and feel a sence of redemption,
she asks God for forgivness and answers,
but she can't find a reason,
to search for forgivness anymore,
So she'll keep screaming,
she'll keep running,
and she'll keep stabbing,
Until she finds a reason to search for forgivness
and until she findsa better answer,
But until then,
She'll let the sharp item save her,
and continue looking for some kind of sign,
to find forgivness.

-Brittani Koning