Confused

I've loved him for 4 years now and yet he's not and has never been my boyfriend. We use to talk everyday,all day when we first met but things haven't been the same for almost 1 1/2 year now. He found a new lover and put me on the back burner once again and had been doin it for a while. i should have stopped it the first time but i was in love you see. He had moved on with his life without me. I thought about him each day and seeing them together made one year of my life hell. seeing them together bought tears to my eyes but not one time have i every wished anything bad for there relationship. I loved him but never did i feel jealous in any way. i just wish he could have been a man and told me what was going on instead of me finding out from someone else that hurt me the most ya know. They broke up and he called me as usual and i talked to him because i missed him. I feel like i can't live without talkin to him sometimes it's strange. We talked like we usual do like nothing ever happen but we both always know the truth. when we talked i got all these good feeling and thoughts like maybe this time we'll be together. My heart would jump, i would be blushing,and crying inside happy just to hear his voice. He always call when he wants to it always last for like a month then 2 months later he would call again. I figured maybe he does that because he's bored and i always fall for it. I ask my friend what do do about to situation and she told me maybe he's just trying to hold on to me because all men i met so far think of me as marriage material because i'm a virgin and everthing they want in a wife. i didn't know how to respond to her. i didn't believe her. The last time i talked to him he was showing off infront his friends and mad me so mad i texted him. I told him not to call me anymore and he hasn't call since then i miss him so much. I told him not to call anymore because i went home to visit and before i went home he was saying how much he wanted to see me which was all bull. i saw him one time. Everynight he would call like at 2:00 sometimes 3:00 in the morning asking me do i want to come over thinking i have sex with him and i could hear his friends in the background. They all know i'm a virgin and everything. I'm mad as hell cause he knows i'm saving myself for marriage and for him to call me like that like i'm one of those other girls he been dealing with made me so mad. I felt like he disrespected me because he knows i wasn't raised by my home boys to let any man disrespect me. I was shocked and you could hear his friends in the background. I was like bye boy i'm sleep. He did that for like 3 nights in row. I mean he ownly called a night like i was sometype of hoe or something i really don't know what he was thinking. He couldn't call me in the afternoon but called at night i was like i let him get away with alot of stuff but now i'm though with it at lease i thought. I'm missing him like hell. I have met someone who loves me but i can't seem to let my ex lover go. He was my ex lover because even though we never made it official everyone knew what was going on with us and knew the feeling we shared was mutral. I don't love the man who loves me. he loves so much he's relocating for me but yet he dosen't make me happy like my ex did. I'm confused I love him it's just hard to let go of someone you love thinking of him brings makes me cry because i miss him its only been a about 2 weeks but i give him one more week and he'll be back. then i'm scared to let the man who loves me go because would if we're meant to be together. what do i do? I'm so confused:(