Would You Forgive me?

Would you forgive me....
         For all those times I yelled at you?
         For all the times I've walked out?
         For wasting your time?

Would you forgive me?

 
I didn't tell you that I love you
         .....as much as I should have.....
I realize I have made mistakes
         ....a lot of mistakes....
I treated you awfully.
         But would you forgive me?
 
I am sorry I did not confide in you.
         I should have known better.
You stayed right by my side
         when I told you I hated you.
You let me come back, after I walked out.
         With open arms,
         And never asked questions,
         You just let me cry,
         And held me tight.
Then you acted as if nothing happened.
 
I took advantage of you.
         But you never said a word.

At last you left me.

 
Now I sit on the couch,
Staring at the door,
         hoping it would open
         and it would be you.
But as hours pass by,

....nothing happens.....

I cry....
         knowing it wouldn't do any good.
I'm swamped in my own tears.
 
I'm irate at you for leaving,
         but then

....it hits me.....

You did what was best.
 
I've put you through so much
I didn't question on on your feelings.
         My selfishness took over me.
I still cry till this day,
Hoping you would come back.
I know you never would,

...I kept denying the thought....

Now, I undergo life as a blur....
You're the only one I can think about
         as years pass by.
Everyday I wonder...
         Where you are....
         What you are doing....
         If you are at ease.....
         If you still remember me....
and in spite of everything...

Would you forgive me?