Tormented

He lives rent free inside my head
I cannot make him go away
Memories of the past flash before my eyes
My obsession turned to my deepest despair
The pain he has caused, not many can understand
I can see his eyes and his taunting smile
Rage runs rampant through my blood
He is with me night and day
I cry, I scream and try to understand
Why things turned out this way
I loved him once, so deeply, so intensely
I thought he was my soul
Now all he is to me is a monster
He has hurt me, a hurt beyond recognition
My girls, my innocent little girls
He hurt them too
I am tormented, filled with guilt for loving him
For allowing him, enabling him
To use us, to abuse us
He needs to pay for all he has done
I won't let this pain go on
He can't hurt me anymore and
There will come a day
That justice will be on my side
And put this prick away
Time will heal my head and heart
And soon I will be ok
My head will no longer be free for lease
For any monsters to stay
My heart will ache for many years
It's a price I am willing to pay
For loving a monster as evil as he