Red Opium.

It seems like forever since I've posted. I really do miss you all, but am most likely going to let my membership go. I've had offeres for people to give me a membership with GP's but I'm letting go not because of cost, but because I'm just not active anymore like I used to be. So in a way, I guess this could be goodbye.

I moved recently. When I moved I saved my little box of blades until last, then in the rush they just got thrown into a random box. I guess I sort of planned it that way. I moved and I had no idea where they were.

My urges were getting so bad I was having dreams about cutting. I was proud of myself for not doing it, you know new house, new habits type of rule set up in my brain. Then in the process of looking for something else I found my little box. I immediately got it out and made four little cuts. They aren't bad, they're clean. I don't feel bad, I feel better, and I just can't worry about it. Things are going pretty well considering all the stress in my life.

Love you all!
Kaya