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Rated: 18+ · Campfire Creative · Poetry · Emotional · #1860530
Just my feelings about a old chapter.
[Introduction]
I could let the pen flow but there ain’t enough ink/
To express all of my feelings and everything that I think/
I’m at a loss for words I don’t see nothing but your face/
Fantasies turned nightmares, stuck without you in this place/
What is it that I don’t have? What is it that I’ve done?/
Tell me so I get it don’t leave me racing on the run/
Inside my head I plead insanity forever loving you/
My heart screams murder these feelings I have deep inside for you/
I feel my hands quiver, still feel your back against my palms/
Making love to you has never ever felt so wrong/
It feels right but here I’m left empty handed once again/
Without your simple kisses I feel stuck in devils din/
I’m asking you to tell it but you bite your tongue so hard/
It pierces all my wounds with teeth made of broken shard/
Even my reflection in the mirror seems empty/
The feathers in my pillow aint soft as you cuddled with me/
What am I to do with these eyes that search for you/
Should I stitch them up, keep walking, scratch out the brown and make them blue/
Like the ocean I’ve been coasting, reaching, grabbing for you/
I’m shooting canons and these flares for the attention from you/
You’re like letters in the sand, you disappear within a blink/
Chalk on stone on rainy days, save the color just to drink/
Your multi-purpose potion that you notion gives me multi-symptoms/
Sick of being sad because I’m angry with this system/
Holding hands one minute, flip it, ignoring each other/
Caught in the marry-go-round aint no way to find another/
No one compares, no contest, I plead the 5th on my desires/
Secret affection up for sale but I’m looking for one buyer/
It aint worth a fortune but it comes in forms of millions/
Your words are safe with me boo, so tell me what you feeling/
I don’t need nobody, aint nobody else for me/
Need to see my scars, I’ll cut them open, make them bleed/
You see I’m hurting but I’m searching for another round of you/
Your touch, your kiss, your smile, every little thing you do/
Because in your arms there aint no clouds Pa, right here there aint no rain/
Right here there aint no question, there is no single ounce of pain/
But I’m supposed to walk now without your explanation/
How am I to make it right if I don’t know your expectations/
Or is this it? You dropping gavels? Is this court no longer in session?/
Reopen up this case I need to know your impressions/
You have me baffled, a dozen questions for the dozen times you’ve walked/
Away from me surprisingly, I thought I had you locked/
The least you could have done was pinch me to wake up/
To the reality you covered man you just don’t give a fuck/
I don’t understand why you ever came to visit/
If you didn’t plan to stay why would you ask me to get with it?/
If it was for the ass you didn’t have to lead me on/
I told you from the get we didn’t have to carry on/
What was finished years ago, we could have been just “buddies”/
Sure, aint what I wanted but, hey I don’t mind the cuddy/
You’ll never understand the amount of love I have/
For you, your family, shit every freckle on your ass/
I know you want to push away but I can’t help pulling back/
I’ll keep tugging until it rips but you keep giving me slack/
But see I aint begging you baby I’m just relieving my stress/
Because if I don’t do it now I’ll stay a complete mess/
Must get this off my chest, I don’t want to let go/
But these visions of you, they hurt and burn up my soul/
I feel my heart growing cold, please could you warm it back up/
Oh wait, hold up, forgot, let me just shut the fuck up/
There I go drifting away in my haze colored daze/
Time to wake back up in jump back into this maze/
Because I love, I trust you, sometimes I find it disgusting/
How much I care for someone who don’t think nothing of me/
Try not to be so depressing but that’s just how I feel/
Reality or illusions, please baby tell me it’s real/
I could go on for a lifetime. Are you still reading this shit?/
I bet you stopped because it sounds like I’m just throwing a fit/
I guess it is what it is but I won’t know because you won’t tell it/
Come on, look me in the eyes and tell me that you’ve never felt it/
I know you felt my love, I’ve been so loud about it/
I did what all I could, tell me why you mad about it/
Tell me where it took a turn, tell me where it all went wrong/
I knew this day would come but you shit you couldn’t wait for long/
To dismiss me so easy, what am I too fucking cheesy?/
Ain’t hood enough or good enough, ain’t swag enough to be breezy/
To be too cool like you. Man, I’m stuck on you like glue/
What if I made it rain, would that buy me a clue?/
See I’m babbling now you got me frantic and puzzled/
I better save my breath on keep on this cold muzzle/

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