...white-hot coruscating genius that more than once dipped its proverbial toes in the obscure.
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You get hungry as a seldom published author/poet/lyricist, so quit pedaling words and just enjoy the writing process. The bullshit ‘process’ of submitting is submission.
I hear what you’re saying, and…SMH
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How I see myself create…in the zone
Curry Flurry: ▼
Writing ▼: Like one of those adventure games—you quest in many directions—don’t advance in the now, in life. Not much illumes experienced words in failed pursuits, while self-correcting, give another go like a kid at an amusement park knowing time is running out. Life misdirects, you go back to start, yet quest again—thirst—hunger, undeterred. The game IS in you. Park open 24/7.
Words collected, diced up for hopeful, hardy stew to hopefully share. Yet, minced words…pungent. Arduous process, hunting, gathering, preparing a feast eventually laid out. Appease? Lay the whole of you on their table? Insult, this offering? Yearning, find one who’ll partake, break bread in that sought communion? Fill with kinship, with loyal love for others who find good company here.
The beautiful mess made:
I had a lover's quarrel with the world - Robert Frost
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I'm sorry you got caught in the middle. - me
Neurodivergent poet ▼ seeks love without that fart in the room between us. Honesty without mincing words has come with a price for those juggling the hot takes on what’s ‘truth’ (here’s some oven mitts). Best to stay clear of those surrounded by moat rules (not my attempt to disrespect, shame or shun. Just doin' me, which has come with its price [I've accepted.])..
Real dialogue accepted.
Wasn’t as open at first about recent diagnosis on spectrum with ADHD (complicated by PTSD, life of brain traumas). Been suggested by doctors of late I might want another brain scan (since 12/4/17…blogged).
This poet’s words collect, arrange on a kaleidoscope spectrum. The experience of discovery through writing is THE reward that allowed me to grow and learn who/what I am — what other people get naturally, immediately, as I stomp around in it.
Been blessed, but pushing it — envelope, world, all inhabitants away. Push buttons, find boundaries to trip traps. No clue why cat curiosity, living in your dark. (Bored, perhaps?)
Now and then, push dirt out of this hole; someone/thing/entity might envision me how I need be viewed (if I knew what that was). Cryptic, yes. Try living in my dark, find comfort amid strange, virtual, wonderful walls that tower above, tempt me to scale.
{dropnote:"Not the same as what I write now, more of a traditional flavor"}
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Best Poetry Collection ▼ 2X, nominated three years straight. I was enjoying myself, head bagged. A happy idiot. Sabotaged it, apparently. No coward; not starting feuds or wars over ideals and beliefs. Know pile of crap packaged with dreams of pretty things to sell the next boob that walks by.
Been more than I could imagine or expect here.
Why Mail It In? In Latin ▼ scripturam in hoc non mutamus, quia stultus es et differentiam nescies.
Examples of excellence in serious repose and self-regard and just a pretty placeholder, sadly
Pluggers:
You are an icon here.
You suffer, but you suffer brilliantly. Wow, what a great writer.
And other people’s (reviewers) words…Review of "The Absence of Wavelength"
Your poetic muse is on fire! Some great emotion, well-balance(d), lovely lyrical qualities -- even the ones that were written out of sadness or anger came through in a clever cadence…It's obvious you've put a lot of work into each entry and the totality of the blog has eye appeal.
Published four times with one a literary journal, including… " The Tender Core (Sedona)"
I don’t submit—too much work with ADHD, OCD, low vision in condensate in mental prison of failing memory. I’ve seen a lot of smoldering and snow. Cynicism bred, work hard at openness and consideration.
18+ Comment: Love my process constructing and sharing visions in words collected (fuck limitations).
I'm Godzilla ▼
August 28, 2006 this blog opened ▼
Going forth, I’ll attempt to document my daily life, experiences in hopes to rediscover my past through old journals to bridge last 15 years of a writer’s life.
Hope to reconnect with my endeavors, carry forward, now that I’m home with kids, unemployed and legally blind from glaucoma. I'm rebuilding this old motor, mount in a clunky, rusty beater of brain, before setting course for a horizon full of misdirection, construction, detours, off ramps and other hapless excursions — put the past in rear view. It's only an automatic; don't get too excited. Oh, no seat belts…or air bags, or 'oh shit' handles, because this baby can still rev rpms to rubber black a road.
I travel light, don’t consult maps or ask directions until really lost. Not unaccustomed to small talk with strangers, getting a feel for ventured countrysides. I like to really know these towns and cities, rivers and lakes, mountains and hills — anything thrown in my path.
Now that I've drained the gas from that metaphor, (Gasp!) throwing this thing into gear. I hear gravel under my wheels! Have to stock up on some Pennzoil. Okay, done. Ah...that's pretty much it...for now.
ADDED: This may be just about basketball going forward (6/2018) and boasting to help appreciate what I still do, legally blind, aging, with shot knees, and psychologically truncated as neuro-divergent with ADHD (among other things).
No specific aim going forward (2014) ▼
I've hammered away at this glass with forefinger since resurrecting on iPad in 2014. Always ready to say too weary, compulsion compels where instigation informs. Bright, full of dark, hidden colors and shapes I reveal as my truth unfolding…into what?
I’ve heard what’s said and what’s unspoken and struggle inside a neurodivergent bubble. Part of my dues as human? But, getting through it, somehow.
Restrained, not always easy to understand. It will be clear someday. Hard, but hide in my heart, making no apologies going forward. Not interested in the trap of stereotypes. I leap out of your box constructs before they close. Responsible for my own emotions, can only do for me when it’s tough times…translate?
This is my pulpit. I'm no preacher. Beginning anew in 2020/2023, maybe I am!
The common denominator in all unfair aspects of life by choices made, surround myself within thorny walls of indifference I dare ascend time to time. I scar, like a good challenge, rebuff conformity. Realize someone somewhere (everywhere and anywhere) has it worse. You won't hear me drowning out their cries. I confide here, look for others who relate. I question what drives me to share, need to be understood with this obtuse, oblique language. No amplifier or soap box needed. Joy is in doing the work, connecting dots in brain…puzzles I forget, repeat. It's catharsis, this discipline called writing. I assume that's why we're all here…?
What I used to say: 'Maybe, I just don't get it. Watch me fumble with my version of reality, expose ignorance as truth. You don't have to get me, either. But, wish someone would explain me to myself.' Now I say: Now: I was such a whore.
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Who am I, you ask? My mirror knows that question, repeated daily.
Just trying to create a little buzz, not boost my ego ▼
#amwriting #poetry #blog #contest #freeverse #award #bestpoetry #lyrics #music #video #YouTube #awardwinning
Can you believe it took this long for someone to put a quarter in me and push the button GET ANGRY?
Mud 4 My Eye: Is that you, Poo? 💩 Secret Back Door ▼
...Best Poetry Collection (apparently) on Writing.Com. 2020, 2021, 2022 below:
This starts with all the 2022 poetry:
{dropnote:"344 blogged poems — public or community shared...lots more in private"}
DECEMBER — 21
" Patience (last post of 2022)"
" Riddled Buttercups"
" Pluck"
" neurodivergence on ADHD"
" The Unworthy Garment"
" Luck Favored One"
" fishbowl"
" thank you, To The Point"
" mittens on hearts"
" Life's Not As Easy As A Gun (to publish)"
" What's So Perfect?"
" Long, Long Road"
" Untested Melody"
" With The Gas On...I'll Not Ignite"
" What Genre Loneliness?"
" Sculpting repeating"
" the flaw in our beauty"
" How To Digest…You/Us"
" Untested Conversation"
" Floating Back Tide"
NOVEMBER — 11
" Reflecting Mortality"
" Bottle-Nosed"
" Little Gourd"
" buds of chrysanthemum"
" All November PPC Prompts Completed" (4 poems)
" Vague Honesty "
" Crispy Crab "
" A GROUNDBREAKING ADVANCEMENT IN THE FIELD OF OBSOLESCENCE"
OCTOBER — 30
" Glass Lit"
" FROSTED"
" Dark Crusade (Provoking A Mind To Ramble)"
" When You Woke"
" Binge In HD"
" Tub"
" Vente-ish"
" What’s in … My Name?"
" Scatalogical cat trapped with poison flask"
" Diamond"
" Breaking A 4th Wall: Beam Me Back"
" Sugar For A Black Cup"
" Haloed and Crafted"
" Matching Pitch"
" white monuments in napalm"
" Instant Eternity With(out) You"
" Orbiting Void (physics of an unknown humanoid)"
" Conferred - After Rot"
" Reload"
" stormy endings REWRITE"
" as far as we get"
" funneling tunneling or whatever"
" …on the chin"
" Promptly Poetry Challenge (weeks 13 thru 17)" 5 poems in progress
" Rough Man"
" it shatters (rhyming)"
SEPTEMBER — 29
" Love Is Splinters"
" Before The End"
" The Four Corners Of A Mind …" Honorable Mention, Shadows and Light
" Building A Fire"
" hurry up and go slow"
" what am i if not a nut?"
" Nature Takes Course"
" So Much About XXII"
" ALL Promptly Poetry Entries for September" (4 poems)
" Fried"
" Before You Swing..."
" (Un)Fulfilled"
" Lower We Go"
" Through The Marrow You Still Go"
" Internalized Unexamined "
" cEnTo aMeRiCaNoS sTyLe"
" Rewrite of 8 by 10"
" The Whispering" 1st Place Daily Poem
" Invalid Entry"
" Cake Allegory"
" Don’t Call Me Noah"
" Reordering Sarah"
" No Holiday"
" Carry"
" Attuning to the forks of you…"
" Wake" 1st Place Shadows And Light }
AUGUST — 9
" CAMERA"
" landslide of time"
" That Sound (Breathless Poetry Series)"
" The Fence"
" Promptly Poetry Challenge - August (Weeks 4-8)" (5 poems)
JULY 💥 — 19
" Wall -Mounted (Longing Look)"
" Buttercup Road" 3rd Place Shadows and Light
" Invalid Entry"
" Ball Of Yarn - Tighten Up"
" Secrets in the Deep"
" Hung To Dry/Yet Another Impulse"
" Steeped (In Your Song)"
" Open To It (lyrical)"
" Futile Mastery (Point Of No Return)"
" Promptly Poetry Challenge - July (weeks 1-3)" (3 poems)
" Loving A Beautiful Dreamer"
" Label My Buttons"
" Built To Soar, Harder The Fall"
" So bad"
" Packed"
" Reflecting"
" Saving Heroes & Me (Saturdays)"
🎣 JUNE 🐟 — 39
" Worldwide Birdbox"
" Powder Keg"
" Tortured (by a revealing song)"
" Self-stamping"
" Unfed"
" The Tender Trap…"
" better than crap"
" Black Lagoon"
" Invalid Entry"
" In Grass Where War Reigns"
" The Disillusioned Illusionist"
" Dear Sunshine (Elephants Have Ears, too)"
" Gripped (unfinished)"
" Another Day Drowning"
" Being In The Moment (Quiet, Not So Easy)"
" Cheating Death/Fighting Life"
" Fuzzy (lyrics in progress)"
" Try Again…"
" Kicking Toward A Quarry"
" S.O.S. I Guess"
" If The Crown Fits"
" Working through it."
" Walks In Snow"
" Blackout"
" When You Glowed"
" Invalid Entry"
" The Dehumanization (Your Cow, Apparently)"
" Sucking (It) Up"
" Painted (Printed Commitments)"
" Publishing and Fishing With Poetry "
" Another, Aim"
" If You Flip, I’ll Light The Way"
" Lifting Them Up/Marking Nothing"
" Hung Up On Something."
" In Love With A Cactus"
" list like a bucket"
" Tempting Confectioners (Have A Cookie & Shut Up)"
" River"
" Sobering: Fade (cover) - Freya Ridings"
MAY 37
" Invalid Entry"
" Smoked Cowboys"
" Restful (Final Journey)"
" Criminal (18+)"
" Rambling Metaphorical Oratory Before Obituary Sanctuary"
" Disturbed"
" What You Ingest Like Poison"
" Dramatic"
" Bathing (Until He’s A Man)"
" The True Blind (Dear Angel)"
" Angel Who Doesn’t See"
" True Monsters/2nd Act"
" Obituary"
" Selling Hope"
" Rewrites: Sedona / War Of Youth / Prose And Dead Men"
" Song Of The Recluse"
" Lost In A Crowd"
" Our Jesus, The Devil (formerly: Some Jesus)"
" Maps Revisited (Freya Ridings Cover of Yeah Yeah Yeahs)"
" Delicates (Softly Worn)"
" Freya (My Castle For Forgotten Memory)"
" No More Games (song for the narcissists)"
" Wild Love"
" The Clicking"
" A Craving, Cooling"
" Capturing The Sound Of Life"
" Using False Language As Truth"
" Commit Enough For Now"
" Purpose The Pushcart"
" Illumination In This Dark"
" Invalid Entry"
" Cars And Trucks (revised)"
" Wild Summers Captured" 2nd " The Random Poetry Contest"
" Beauty Rest"
" Carving Knife " 1st place PoetTrad { 2nd WhatContest 3/3
" Without Words"
APRIL 56
" pinwheel"
" conceding to tides"
" aimless"
" Cacophony of disharmony - work in progress…as all are"
" nailing it (unembellished) "
" Weight of Words"
" warp of white rooms "
" In Death"
" How We Could Sing"
" Destroy and Weep Wonderfully "
" Constricted "
" Poe-eh-try"
" if i could, would i?"
" while you're so golden..."
" when i feel dead, there's you"
" Love Substitute"
" Pretend (the long halls)"
" Arming Agua"
" time won't give up"
" nice ass"
" The Delay"
" tender"
" Under The Throw" Honorable Mention - April Taboo Words
" April Fool"
" what is this about?"
" you undressed me"
" Worth From Nothing"
" Crown-Spun"
" No One Said 'Hostage'"
" Save me from my own boredom"
" Unanimated"
" Spring Already"
" Unassured"
" Write To This"
" Talk Too Much or Be Scripted"
" Aim Of The Moon's Glow"
" we all die, some don't suffer"
" Burning Questions Unanswered "
" West Philly!? You Still Watch Oscars"
" Closets"
" Price of Fashion"
" She Talks To Angels"
" Re-Emerging"
" Statue of Man"
" Recess Access"
" Skipping Memory"
" My Bunker"
" newspapers #breathless #poetry #adhd"
" The Twenty Years Screwed #breathless #poetry #adhd"
" Moot Question (Gibberish) #breathless #poetry #adhd"
" Norah (Ever Or Again) #breathless #poetry #adhd"
" Growing Up Is Death #breathless #poetry #adhd"
MARCH 53
" Morning Mirror"
" What Does She Need From A Boy?"
" In Love With A Pyro"
" Invalid Entry"
" Hostages of Conformity #breathless #poetry #adhd"
" Another Cannons-inspired Write today?"
" Irish Rhythms"
" My Aim Is True"
" Invalid Entry"
" Wobbling Season"
" Invalid Entry"
" Invalid Entry"
" Two Stones In Water"
" Cruise Control"
" The Cavernous Mind"
" Stormy Garden (Goddess Who Inspires Beauty)"
" Half Past Moon"
" Blood Clot To The Brain"
" My Penis"
" Brown Returns"
" Heavy Is The Face...(Spare A Candle)"
" Wobbling Season"
" The Skipped Parts"
" blood journey"
" Invalid Entry" Honorable Mention ~ Stormy’s Poetry Newsletter 3.23.22
" Tales With A Moral Await"
" Valentine, I'm Not Him"
" As My Own"
" The Sluice"
" j.d."
" Invalid Entry"
" Invalid Entry"
" Deep In Glass"
" Finally Free?"
" atoms family"
" Moot: Hold It Together, Mother"
" Aim, Misfired"
" how i don't integrate"
" Amber Light"
" muddled"
" How Much I Need…"
" Play Land: Closed Forever"
" Change The Rhyme (Pop Syndrome)"
" The Spun"
" Just A Game (hungry wolves...I pity them)"
" Unhealthy Obsession "
FEBRUARY 26
" Godless Eaten"
" Torn"
" building blocks and popping corn"
" In The Dark Jar #dark #death #selfworth #purpose"
" Romantic and Lonely"
" Here We Go Again"
" I am I"
" Buried (in thought)"
" when the tree comes down"
" ...but you're not there "
" Not So Much As A Bare Toe "
" Paper And Glue #rejection #love #youth"
" The Tool"
" A Container For Something"
" Be-Feathered"
" Arizona Night"
" The Merit Of Looks"
" A Snowman’s Purpose"
" Nearing The Confession Of Death"
" The Last Draught Of Red"
" sorry dad, I was a kid"
" Bitterness Is Final"
JANUARY 18
" Crown Of Leaves"
" The Game Is Mine"
" Ode to an ode: Stay Forever Immortal, Again"
" Blank"
" The Other Side"
" Blah Blah Poem (UNawarded)"
" Atom: Rebirth Unproven"
" BoomEranG"
" Pot Of Hope"
" Flowing Brooding Blood"
" Decaying Words Buried"
" When Again..."
" My Bucket: Lowered"
" My Everest"
" Morning Drift #black #death"
The Best Poetry Collection on Writing.Com ▼for two years (2020 & 2021) housed here, according to voters of WDC Quill Awards:
For me, the love is in the process of constructing and sharing visions in words (no small task considering personal and physical limitations. Take it for what it is. It’s an HONOR I will try pay back and forward:
Best Poetry Collection
Best Medium Length Free Verse Poem "Rewrites: Sedona / War Of Youth / Prose And Dead Men"
Poetry is serendipity, and a mystery. I keep writing, hoping I'll find what I'm looking for. But then, I just move on to the next. You’d think I’d publish, again.
2022 Awards/Writing Merits
(Many contests stopped judging, other monthly and quarterlies closed, while others continued accepting entries without awards. Even Schnujo stopped mid-contest for some unknown reason. My offerings were shut out the last 3 months of 2022 and won't enter contests, preferring activities like that of Lilli Munster 🧿 ☕ 🎃 . Very thankful I did.)
2021 Quill - Best Free Verse Poem "A War Of Youth "
2021 ~ Every Poem From Year Linked Below
Final tally: 259 poems in 2021...27 writing awards acknowledged...sometimes, I miss something.
(*NOTE* Sometimes, poems are set to public, for member, or private. Happy to know if anything is accidentally blocked from view.)
December...13 ▼
November...8 ▼
October...13 ▼
September...21 ▼
August...21 ▼
July...30 ▼
June...62 ▼
May...33 ▼
April...25 ▼
March...18 ▼
January/February...15 ▼
"Invalid Entry" Shadows & Light Contest entry (January, 2021) Honorable Mention (2020 penned)
2021 Awards/Writing Merits:
2017-2022 Blog Poetry Links ▼
The 2020 Quill award is for my poetry blog (collection of poetry), "The Absence of Wavelength" .
Where little dreams go to die...a gentle clutter
clumped and cloistered
begging for air
as the dark sun
hides on that
18th degree
rotated away
from me as I melt
into fertile ground
amid the waste
that shouldn't be...
I offer links to mainly raw, unfinished work from two primary blogs. I reveal the blemishes of constructed words, at times, let viewers in on my process (mainly in free verse ), some aimed for soul's perfection only to ramble (like this sentence). I do revisit and edit (notations added) these entries, attaching comments, as needed. Perhaps, one day, I will harvest the best for a book.
2️⃣0️⃣2️⃣0️⃣ blogged poetry:
*Done adding links here as of 12.31.20. A more focused 2021 collection is in the works and will be linked in future. Look in blogs for anything newer than poems below:
{dropnote:"Remainder of 2020"}
"Invalid Entry"
"Invalid Entry"
"Invalid Entry"
Here Comes October...61 ▼
September...72 Poems ▼
August...53 Poems ▼
July...28 Poems ▼
June...13 Poems ▼
May...26 poems ▼
April...30 poems ▼
March...22 Poems ▼
February: 42 Poems ▼
January: 35 Poems ▼
"When I'm restless"} and words swirl an addled head, I blog to hopefully set them free. But the process only alleviates suffering temporarily, as I offer again and again.
Like I tell people who visit these words, I offer raw and unedited (reserve the right to go back and change or just harvest to create items for my portfolio)
Ack! I inhaled something bad...
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