A Misconnected Journey Anywhere by ME

Journeying to Myself

I know, I know! I said the next entry was going to be lighter but I cannot help it. I just started a #7 month (that's numerology). It's all about study, research, contemplation etc etc etc. You know, DEEP

I just have to get things out of my head, you see? If my head stays full, things in my mind are bigger than life Writing or talking with someone is like emptying the recycle bin on your computer. If you didn't do this now and then your computer works slower. Same with me.

I am buying a house. Very exciting for sure. But, keeping everything straight, making sure everything is done, even anticipating the enormity of the committment all by myself is very scary. For years I've questioned myself and my ability. Don't get me wrong, I am very social, outgoing, and willing to take chances. It's the times I say, OMG, can I achieve this? Having children has made me more self-assured but, there are major moments, like now.

I've never been terribly organized. In fact, I'd rather play my guitar, write, sing, or play in some way. It isn't that I am incapable, I actually prefer an orgaNIzed environment. It's never been my priority. I usually do what I have to for getting by. My favorite waty to get the whole house clean was to plan a party But I want to be organized in this house, MY HOUSE...

So, being in a 7 month is good. I'll do less socializing, (that's the 3 influence) and more examination of the wording on all the paperwork. Attention to detail is easier in a 7 influence. I guess this is all very good timing after all.

You see? I knew writing it down would work I feel better already.

Ciao