The Life Of Me.

14th September 2005

Had a bit of a poopy day. Just really, really tired...in Psychology got told that practically all marriages are arranged in some way or form...which kinda put me in a spin about love and marriage and all that stuff...Am I in love with Martin because he's similar to me and can help me "survive"? Kinda weird...

Then I came home early...went to sleep for an hour...went up to Kenton school ON MY OWN, met with the head of sixth form, who basically told me I'd wasted my time, 'cause me and Roy had got it wrong. *sigh* So I'm back to square one with the Psychology at Newcastle...it feels like it won't happen. And I want it so badly...there just doesn't seem a way around it. I don't see why the school can't accomodate some teaching space to help me pass Maths AS....surely there's some time when our lessons don't clash and I can ask for help. If not, I'm getting a textbook myself and doing it. I *need* this. So badly.

And Martin's busy tonight Really wanted some comfort, since all Mum gave me was shit about this. Telling me to stop crying (when I wasn't :-S ) and telling me off basically. Which I didn't need. I felt like my dreams had been completely shattered and there she was giving me shit for no reason. Only wanted some comforting...Is that too much to ask now I'm almost 18? Surely it can't be...

I'm in such a shit mood.