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Rated: ASR · Book · Biographical · #551218
Jots of thoughts as they flit through the rummage of my mind.
#203442 added November 3, 2002 at 12:39am
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Why me, Lord?
My faith sustains me when nothing else does. When my determination, which keeps me going when I have no go left, finally deflates; when I can't force myself to take another step; when my body and spirit both say "no way"; when I feel as if life no longer seems liveable; my belief that God does care and watch over me allows me to continue. However, sometimes even faith seems to disappear, and I'm left floudering, lost, and very bewildered. Then I find myself asking, "Why me, Lord? I know your word says you'll not burden us with more than we can bear, but I don't want to know how much I can bear. I am NOT curious."

The last few days have been times of testing, I guess, and I'm not sure I passed. My body ached beyond measure. Sleep didn't appear, apparently, on my list of "to do" things. The least small endeaver left me exhausted. I haven't even written in my journal because every ounce of energy was drained by reviewing a few posted entries and answering comments and emails. Nothing hard for me to do, usually, but I just couldn't do one more thing.

Why me, Lord? You know how much I love writing, how it's as necessary to me as breathing. You give me the words and the desire; so why are they now hidden?

Why me, Lord? You know how much I enjoy interacting with the other writers on the forum, how I feel as if I'm contributing, helping; so why does it now take me thirty minutes to do what just a short time ago took me five or ten?

Why me, Lord? You know how much I love and enjoy my grandchildren, attending their activities, being with them. You have loaned them to me for this short lifetime; so why do I not have the strength to go where they wait?

Why me, Lord? Ah, do I hear You answering why not me? Are You telling me that You know that I may question but still search for Your hand to lead me? Yes, Lord, I ask for Your hand to guide me and for Your love to surround me and for Your strength when mine fails. Most of all, I ask for You to fill me and to forgive me for allowing my faith to waver, no matter how slight.

Viv
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Jots of thoughts as they flit through the rummage of my mind.
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