The Absence of Wavelength

Cerebral, I Think?

I kept your secret, polysci—
So well, I can’t remember
Some people can be cheeky
Nudge-wink, you know?
But what I mean as joke —
Flat affect, takes too long
Rounding that bend to you
Sun sets. I no longer cry
Abandoned in the dark,
Invented my own games cerebral

I lost the point, don’t know
Anything but what’s in my gut
A fireball glowing love, passionately,
Eager to run to you like mommy
See me? See what I do??
But you're my sister and don’t get
This atypical guy espousing
Multi-syllabic words waxing.

What? Poetic? I mean to be
Beautiful, be accepted, finally
Arrive at that station in life
Only…more puzzles like clues
To keep up with you, and
Who makes the rules anyway?

You’re not disappointed with me
Maybe, I surpassed you and did not know it.

Don’t worry. When I wake tomorrow,
Your sparkling diploma on wall shimmers,
Will charm mom and dad, as I deflect.

What is the strange meaning of this life,
PS? Did I forget to hold your hand,
Or, will you always finger blame a tard,
like I’m the one who’s playin’? Who??


9.21.23

Vaguely…something…oh, wait…

Now I remember…
Nah, won’t link.
And, whatever. I do worse without trying, apparently. Wake me up and…clean slate.
*this note to myself*